And so this is Christmas!
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So this is Christmas and what have you done
Another year over, a new one just begun

And so this is Christmas, I hope you have fun
The near and the dear ones, the old and the young

A very merry Christmas and a happy new year
Let's hope it's a good one without any fears

And so this is Christmas for weak and for strong
The rich and the poor ones, the road is so long

And so happy Christmas for black and for white
For yellow and red ones let's stop all the fights

A very merry Christmas and a happy new year
Let's hope it's a good one without any fear

And so this is Christmas and what have we done
Another year over, a new one just begun

And so happy Christmas we hope you have fun
The near and the dear ones, the old and the young

A very merry Christmas and a happy new year
Let's hope it's a good one without any fear

And so this is Christmas and what have we done
Another year over, a new one just begun

Just Ramblings & Thoughts!
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I finally found a good friend of mine who I always said she had a direct pipeline to God!  I found her daughter through the wonders of Google, I had been searching for her for a very long time, it was her birthday in September, and I was hoping that she was still alive when I reached out to her daughter, and lo and behold she called me.  We attended the same church in Maryland and would go on the Women's Retreats together.  We would do slumber parties on the Eve of going to the Retreats the next day!  I have known her since 1992, so that means we have known each other for 24 years.  When Stefanie had her surgery for her appendicitis back in 1994 she was at the hospital with me, and she gave me a small grey bible that belonged to her to give me comfort.  The Saturday that I had to go to work and Gary went on Visitation with the church she came over with her husband and her daughter and they kept a watchful eye on my daughter, who was released from the hospital, and I couldn't take anymore days off.  For one of my birthday's before we left Maryland, she gave me a locket that belonged to her and to this day I still have it...So many nice memories!  The only thing I don't like is that she can talk for hours on the phone, without taking a breath, so she does the talking and I do the listening.  Anyone who knows me knows I hate the phone!  But the great thing is that we can text message and I am okay with that!

My 61st birthday was this week, and I don't feel 61, but I know I am!  I feel blessed!  Keith took me out to eat at Applebees and it was nice.  I got lots of cards from my family and I feel loved!

Stefanie turned 33 as we share the same birthday!  Hard to believe my baby is 33!  She sent me a beautiful card with the children's handprints, and Ashton's footprint and Alfie and Belle's paw prints and some gift cards to dine out!  Glad she didn't try the flower thing again because 4 dozen flowers later, my house smelled like a floral shop!  But it was only because they kept sending the wrong flowers, and the online florist apologized and by the 4th time they got it right!

Well I have rambled on for awhile!  I love journaling because I like putting my thoughts where I can see them for posterity.

Enough for now!

OUR 15TH ANNIVERSARY
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Today Keith and I celebrated our 15th Wedding Anniversary!  I am glad we went out to eat yesterday because I am not feeling well at all...It started out with a headache and now I have a runny nose, sneezing, coughing and I feel simply horrible!  I took a dose of Nyquil and hopefully I will start to feel better tomorrow.

On another note my brother's mother-in-law passed away on August 2nd.  She had a stroke and since my brother set up a web cam so they could contact her.   They noticed her sitting on her recliner and it looked like she was reading her newspaper, however, a few hours later they spotted her on the floor unresponsive, when they called out to her, so they called her next door neighbor and he broke the door down and called 911.  They figured she was out of it for about 8 to 12 hours.  She was in the ICU for Stroke Patients.  They moved her to a nursing home but she did not want life saving measures, and she passed away 2 weeks later.

Well that is definitely all for now...I just like to make notations every now and again for posterity.
Good night all!


 

My Thoughts...
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So, I got a little cashiering job at this really cool place...however I could not handle the cement floors because my back and my sciatic nerve was causing so much pain that I had to quit after only 6 weeks.  Now I am trying to apply for disability, they said they would pay for me to go have X-rays and an MRI done, and I welcome that, because given the amount of pain I have been in I know that my back has probably deteriorated more, as its been 18 years!  I didn't want to end up in a wheelchair because I chose to ignore the pain and continue working.  It was only 8.50 an hour part time.  But I would come home and be in such agony that it wasn't worth my suffering.  It is difficult to understand my pain unless a person has the same thing I do.  I have taken alot of ibuprophen here lately and now my stomach is tore up!  I can't seem to catch a break!  There are alot of people worse off than I am, so I don't want to complain.  I had no idea when I took this job that I would have to quit so soon.  I was a wee bit younger when I worked for Walmart, and I did have pain there but I was able to work through it, but now I am 60 years old and its not easy to work through horrible pain!

On another note Stefanie is about ready to give birth, she is having contractions as I write this, but nothing to worry about yet!

Anyway that is all for right now! 

Update!!!
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Today I would have been married for 40 years to Gary!  It seems like that era of my life never happened!  I know that it did happen because I have 3 children from that union.  At this point in my life I have no regrets, I am married to the most wonderful man, he still makes my heart smile.  I know that Keith and I don't have much, but its okay because we have each other.  We have been together for 16 years, and this year we will be married for 15 years, and everyday I do thank God for bringing Keith into my life.

My son has been incarcerated for 4 years now, time has gone by quickly, and I really miss him even though we speak on the phone on a daily basis.  Out of the 18 people prosecuted he is the only one still serving time.  I feel that his wife should have been sent to the prison as well.  If anything he is healthier and even though he is incarcerated he has turned to God, and that is all that I can ask for.

I have not written on this journal for a very long time, because I have been sick or busy. Anyway, I like this journal, I always have.  I have had this journal going on 11 years.  Anyway I just wanted to put my thoughts out there.  Happy New Year to one and all!!!

Today is my 60th Birthday, Wow!!!!
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Today is my 60th Birthday!  Wow when I was 30 I thought that was old, but now that I am sixty its 30 x 2!  Amazing!  I just feel so blessed!  I don't really feel any different except for a few more aches and pains here and there!  I still feel like the same ole me, except for when I look in the mirror, I don't see the young vibrant girl I was once upon a time.  I see "my mother" so I guess all the time I thought I was adopted has been blown right out the water.  Anyway I am now 60 years old going into another decade of life!

Anyhow that is all for now!!!!

Happy Birthday my Shabby Abby!
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Today is Abigail's 11th birthday!  Wow the years have gone by and she has grown up!  I miss her lots...as I miss Aiden as well!

I am taking my last class and I am happy!  My conferral is August 15th, so I will graduate just 2 months shy of my 60th birthday!  I interviewed a professional in the field and that was alot of fun!

Well that is all for now!  It's after 1:00 AM and I really need my sleep, but I just couldn't sleep, so here I am!

Tribute to my Cousin Valerie!
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Today my Cousin Valerie has been gone for 19 years.  I still remember the day that my mom called me and told me she was dead!  I even remember the outfit I had on, because I had just come from church.  She was a very nice person and never met a stranger.  I miss her very much, and I know that she was saved and baptized and that she is definitely in heaven.  Anyway, I love you Valerie and I always will!  Rest In Peace!

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Okay its been a little while since I posted on here.  It seems this blood pressure medication is making me loopy!  Keith is worried about me, because he says that I am not the same person, that I fall asleep in the car while he is talking to me, and I never did that.  He said he wants the "old" me back!  Truth be told, I don't have any energy whatsoever...I don't care about anything and I feel so lethargic...I don't like this feeling I am not one to "sleep" if I don't have too!  I used to stay up until the wee hours of the morning and now at 10 PM I feel like I can't keep my peepers open!  This is really bullshit!!!!  I want to feel like the old me not the one who is on medication.

My parent's 62nd Wedding Anniversary was on Saturday January 31st.  Wow 62 years together!  In this day and age its difficult to comprehend that length of time together.  My mother says she needs to stay around for my dad because he needs her.  Well here's to many more years together.

My brother says that we should work on 62 married years.  I have to say if that be the case I would be 108 years old!  I told Keith we are going to live to be 100.  I feel crappy right now!  I just want to feel like "ME"  Anyway!  enough for now.

Until next time...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

On This Day!
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Its hard to believe but 39 years ago on this day, I married Gary...I was a mere 20 year old who didn't really think about what I was doing.  But still 39 years is a long time, fortunately for me I knew when to get out.  I have been thinking about my life with him, and he only cared about himself.  I remember enrolling in school and coming home and being so happy because I thought he would be happy for me too! But all he said was "My career comes first, and if you are not done by the time with leave here, tough!"  I surely did cry that day!  I realized he did not care about what I wanted.  He was a selfish human being!  Now I am married to someone who cares and loves me for me.  We have been together 15 years and going to be married 14, and I was thinking the other night it would have been nice to meet early on, and to have his children, but God knows what he is doing, and I love Keith more with each passing day!  Anyway every January 2nd that passes I count my blessings because I know I could not have stayed married to Gary, not for all the tea in China!  I know I don't have all the money he has, and we have been through some lean times in our marriage, but I know that God has never let us starve...Anyway I am blessed and happy!

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